Filled with all the fullness of God...

Have you ever felt like you were on an endless journey, but no matter what you heard a long the way or sometimes even felt in your heart, you can't seem to turn around or go in a different(not always the "right") direction.

I'd say I'm in the process of just switching courses. Scary? Yes and No. One thing I've learned so far in my 24 years of life is that I'm so incredibly stubborn. I reach a point where I have no choice but to turn around on the current path I so desperately needed to be on or completely hit a wall with a sign on it that says in big bold bright letters " HEY DUMMY, YEAH YOU, IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED? WELL, HERE YOU GO, ENJOY" And yes that could seem a little harsh, but I don't really think so, because I should have learned my lesson a while ago, I just was too stupid to just listen to God's voice and especially my inner peace. So that's where the No comes in...it's like I have no other option but to not be scared. I'm young and if I'm still here on earth it means I have a lot of life ahead of me and God is definitely not finished with me yet. That's one of the best things about being young is knowing all these great, wonderful things are going to happen...they just have too right? I'm not completely in denial about the horrible things that could and probably will happen, I'm well aware of that, but somehow I just know better things are on the way!

Now on to the yes...why it is scary. I was so comfortable...breathing life into my insecurities for so long, I feel lost. The new path seems so long...the start of something that could indeed be just as bad as the next one if I just make one wrong turn. God works his love on me and simply says "it gets worse before it gets better." Getting through the worse has always been the hardest part for me. I stand in my own way.

Not this time. I kind of feel like I'm finally ready to know how it feels to completely put a road block on that dirty, non peaceful, and untrue path. How will I ever know if I don't take the stand to move on?

I've only taken a few steps in this new direction...but so far so good:) Update in a few months.

I'll leave you with these words of scripture that I've been studying all morning. Don't just read it...meditate on this, study it until you completely understand/ get it. Because I'll tell ya, that is some POWERFUL STUFF.

Ephesians 3: 12-21

"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."